Blogging took a backseat I’m afraid. Had a rough few weeks with last night being the crowning touch. I’m only blogging now because I’ve actually felt guilty about not posting anything in days. I will go back to bed shortly.
Making sammiches for the kids, I turned my head ever so slightly (thinking of the next inane thing to say to Cruel Wife), and hit the floor.
You have heard me say that there’s pain and then there’s pain. I am used to vanilla pain. I’m not used to tear-your-spine-out-with-pliers-bit-by-bit-and-replace-it-with-molten-silver pain or badgers-just-chewed-out-my-hernia-and-appendix-and-are-working-on-my-liver pain. The amount you can actually do when hit by it sounds very disturbingly like what I’m told being tasered is like. You can’t *do* anything other than drop like a rock. That’s it. Your choices are to (a) drop like a rock, or (b) drop like a rock.
Some time passed before I stopped scrabbling my feet along the floor and punishing the front of the stove. Not sure how long. Cruel Wife just stood there in horror because if she did the wrong thing it could make things worse and she wasn’t really sure what the right thing was, either. Well, that makes two of us, because I didn’t know either.
After some time I grabbed the handle of the fridge and scrabbled along the stove and counter and hauled myself up. Moved glacially slow to my chair and sat down.
It’s 22 hours later (roughly) and not much has changed. I called CW a bit ago to see if that was her that called earlier when I couldn’t make it to the phone. She said “How you doing?” She KNEW what I was going to say:
Don’t worry about me. I’ve never felt better.
Easier to say that than for the millionth time “I kinda feel like donkey shiat”.
Back to bed.
Addendum: NO, I’m not looking for “Sorry” or “Get Well” comments. I was simply feeling guilty for not posting and then saying “WTF am I feeling guilty about? There’s a reason dammit!” and then thinking “Geez, grow some, you puke” as I was writing all this out but figured I’d at least say something anyway so you didn’t feel like I was (God forbid) stopping blogging or something dire like that. “Man up!” I said to myself as I kicked my own ass silly. And then hit “Post” anyway. It’s complicated.
Curtal, you are a better man than I…