Posts Tagged ‘migraine’

The Riderless Black Horse is an expression I borrowed from Stephen King to describe migraines.  The hoofbeats thudding through your head are ominous and threatening.

I was off work today, bedridden for the most part in a dark room – probably should have used an injector but I have a certain limit below which I won’t use them.

But then at 5pm I had an appointment.  At the eye doctor.

I sat for millennia as the light from a thousand suns poured into first one eye and then the other and they boiled in their sockets.  Molten lava sloshed in the channels of my brain, following a tidal pattern that had no apparent source.   Entire memories and experiences cried out and shriveled up, turning black and blowing away as fine sparkling dust motes.

Then he charged me several hundred bucks and sent me on my way, sweaty and shaken.


The Malaysian airliner issue is still out there.  I’ve heard lots of impassioned arguments for it being just an accident, a malfunction, or something less than sinister.

But you just cannot explain away the things that make zero sense.

KT McFarland had an article about what we have learned and what have potential terrorists learned, which is interesting from a “flow of information” standpoint.  The argument being that we have told a lot about how we respond and how lax security is, and how we have learned nothing.

What kind of talk is that?  Seriously?  McFarland has supposedly worked in national security posts and she doesn’t recognize that we’re watching the terrorists very closely right now?  You better believe that they are watching the spider web for telltale vibrations.  Information flow never flows only one way unless one is an idiot.  Our security forces are many things, but idiots?  No.

As a former NSA director told me, we’re still looking at China, Russia and North Korea. We’re not as focused further south, or in the Southern Hemisphere.

We’re looking at China, Russia, and North Korea???  Really?  They are the LAST places I’d look.  Those are stupid ideas.  And those are perfect examples of poor misdirection.

She says also:

… not everyone in the world is sharing information. Our satellites may not be looking south, but maybe Chinese satellites are, especially since Malaysia borders the Strait of Malacca, one of China’s most important trade routes. The Chinese official press has criticized the U.S. for not sharing our satellite data. Are they sharing theirs?

My guess?  China has worked very hard to scrub their data of any information that tells about their sensors and technology first.  Subtle variations in the images tell what kind of apertures exist in their systems, aberrations present, and detector capabilities (noise, readout noise, sensitivity, etc.).  That takes time, so I am not surprised it took so long to distribute what they do have.  Just handing out photos willy-nilly is just giving away information about your capabilities.

… even if we have the technology it isn’t always used, or used correctly. There were three separate instances where the missing plane wasn’t doing what it was supposed to do.  Yet Malaysian air traffic controllers missed them. India has radar but, according to some reports, turns it off at night to save money.

India has radar but turns it off at night.  And that couldn’t possibly have been exploited?  Surely not.

There have been so many stupid things uttered by people who are supposed to be smart that I strongly suspect that there is an energized campaign of misinformation on all sides.  That’s easier to swallow than everyone involved is an idiot.

And another article has the following quote:

“The reason I don’t lean toward it being hijacked and then landed in a foreign country to be used later is that you’ve already advertised that there’s a missing aircraft out there now,” Cane said. “Why would you allow your potential targets to raise their defenses? That’s not the way terrorists operate.”

Have IQ’s dropped precipitously recently?  Did the 1993 Trade Center bombing just totally get forgotten?

Terrorists observe.  What they learn from observing determines how they will act.

Has no one read Sun Tzu’s The Art of War?  The terrorists have.


Could someone remind me again what NASA stands for?

Social, economic, and political studies?  Was that what NASA was created to do?

Study of the downfall of civilization?  There is irony there if you dig for it.


Proof of life?  No, proof of lie.

NOAA showing its bias for all to see.



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Present, tense…

Well, I think it is pretty safe to say Putin has taken the measure of the west and determined that it poses him no threat.

Oh, I am sure we will make all sorts of scary sounding statements and someone will bring up the Budapest Memorandum, but Putin knows that no one has the nerve to rush in and start a conflict over Ukraine.

Of course even an idiot like me can have an opinion, and I could be wrong. But I don’t think I am wrong here. Putin is crazy-crazy and he knows everyone else knows it. He knows Obama is a cream puff. I would say there is only a 2-3% chance anyone will call Putin on it.

Now, when was the last time you remember someone invading another country in Europe-East? Did that end well? Did they promise it would be only the one time and it really was love? And that they wouldn’t do it again if everyone went along with it?

That China has immediately jumped on the bandwagon signals a sea change that surprises no one who pays attention.
On a friend’s office window. We will refer to her as “Major Headache”. She would appreciate that humor. She too gets migraines and agrees with me that a migraine is basically a slurpee tumor (brain freeze) like the worst you ever had that does not go away. For days.

Cruel Wife says this has been on FacialTome or whatever it is.


How do you say “I do not like you”? With a “Micro Tech Knives 1051GR Jagdkommando Fixed Blade Knife”.


I would not stab my friends with a knife like that.

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I got to see my first movie in a theater where I understood it all instead of 10-30% for the first time in my life.

CW and I went to see Star Trek before it left the theaters.  Kids were with Grandpa.  We got there and they had personal captioning devices that you could plug into your cup holder and watch honest-to-God captions that were readable, well synced, complete sentences – everything.  It seems like a simple thing to those that can hear but to me it was like being a little kid and given a Red Ryder BB gun.   It was that cool.

Halfway through, a migraine hit, and I could not leave for some Imitrex.  By the end of the movie I was a turnip with no nervous system other than a set of nerves all cranked to 11.  Today was rough but now I have migraine hangover.  It was bad today.  I was pretty close to banging my head on the doorframe and was nauseous.  Went to work anyway, had CW drive me to and from.  I may be able to sort of work like that but driving like that puts innocent people at risk and I won’t do it.

But seeing Benedict Cumberbatch play his part in it as he did, after playing Sherlock as well as he did… he ranks up with Bryan Cranston in my book.

The movie was so-so.  Predictable.  Still fun even as it slowly killed me.

I definitely want to see more movies like that.  Where I have captions to enjoy them.


DailyMail.co.UK seems to have more on the ball than newspapers in the US.

Pill you take can remember your passwords.  Tablets can transmit personal details to devices as they pass through your body.  Then what?  The future will be full of scat salvagers who reclaim important poo for $5 a pound.

I have heard of people rooting through my shit but this seems… excessive.


Higher levels of air pollution reduced the frequency of North Atlantic hurricanes and other tropical storms for most of the 20th century, a study said Sunday.   –  Researchers from the UK Met Office created weather simulations covering the period 1860 to 2050

Well, when things haven’t been warming up as per the dire predictions it was said to be an unexpected slowdown but the situation is just as dire.

When cold weather hit during the massive lurch to global warming that wasn’t really, it was explained that pockets of intense cold and snow are predicted by runaway AGW.

When hurricanes and tornadoes were thought to be getting stronger it was considered as being caused by AGW.

Now the reduced frequency is predicted to be signs of higher levels of air pollution.

So whether it is drought, flooding, hurricanes or no, bad hurricanes or lesser hurricanes, warmer or no, colder winters or no…. someone somewhere can run a model that shows that it is due to AGW.

And if we engaged in zero carbon footprint – all of us – killed off 90% of the humans on earth, killed off all our cows, buried our vehicles, lived in caves, and ate nothing but algae engineered to be the new green tofu.

Why, we could bring back the Garden of Eden Creation Kit (GECK) and it would work flawlessly.

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Update Image… probably appropriate that I did some updating while enduring… a migraine! Wow!  At least that is what the prevailing opinion seems to be… general neck pain and that evolves into bitchin’ migraines. Of course, my heart wasn’t in it, and I stopped well short of satisfaction. The plan is to have things go black and red behind him, show color to the bottom and left in front of him, but as you look closer and closer to him, things start to wash out and go grey, blending into the wave of black.  It’s a work in progress still.

(Gets bigger if you click on it)

I don’t know if a muse aids art or just writing. Doesn’t matter. Inspiration wanders by so you grab it.


The “Before” Post

After several days of this bitch-kitty of a headache, I decided I was going to try to bring the visual to life. Below is my mental image (more or less) of the damned riderless black horse as it thuds it’s way to me at onset. Thud-thud, thud-thud, thud-THUD, THUD-THUD… damn thing’s eyes and hooves glow and it is most certainly, oh so certainly frothing as if it were rabid.

It’s not “right”, as it is a work-in-progress, but it conveys the idea, I guess. What I want is for the area around that fell beast to just grow dark for it having even been there. The horse should represent the antithesis of life.

(I think it’ll be a bigger pic if you click on it…)

I guess muse would work in a very roundabout way (might even fit the definition of irony). Stephen King gave me the notion, the concept, years ago when I was knee-high to a grasshopper. I was reading Firestarter which has to be one of his more endearing (if tragic) stories. Andy McGee ended up having these headaches after he “pushed” someone.

UPDATE: Friday Afternoon

From Fox News… How cultured and polite are the hecklers these days!

Bush Heckler Arrested After Punching Wheelchair-Bound Girl

Thursday , April 24, 2008


A man heckling First Lady Laura Bush and daughter Jenna outside the 92nd Street Y was arrested after he punched a wheelchair-bound girl whose parents had told him to shut up, authorities said Wednesday.

German Talis, 22, was shouting obscenities at the Bushes, who were leaving the building Tuesday, when he crossed paths with Wendy and John Lovetro and their daughter Maureen, 18, who has cerebral palsy.

They had been in the audience to hear the Bushes talk about their children’s book, “Read All About It.”

“He began yelling about Iraq and Iran at Jenna Bush. She was waving at the crowd. I told the guy, ‘What are you doing? Shut up. This is about a child and books,’ ” said John Lovetro. “He was unperturbed. I said, ‘Get out of here! You’re being a moron!’ ”

The next thing he knew, Talis was allegedly punching Maureen, a fan of the first lady since meeting her in 2004.

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